Jet fuels and big ugly inside out tears

I found it.

I finally fucking found it.

Now you may be wondering- oh gee what did this crazy lunatic that talks about periods find?

Let me tell ya

listen up

LISTEN UP

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What I want to study!
Yes, ladies and gentlemen and many other different pronouns, I have finally come to a comcluded decision of what I want to study at university. I mean, about time! The whole point of this gap year was, other than shit scared and unprepared, was to find what I wanted to study for 2016. I was so conflicted and felt like absolute shit about my future, but after much research (eh, only 2 hrs or so. maybe more?), I have come to the most beautiful conclusion my heart could take.

I am going to study Digital Design with a minor in either Cinematic arts or Game and play design.

That is, if I get in.

So currently I'm planning out my portfolio buttt I'm still shit scared about the process. the alarming thoughts that are going through my head are;

"Do I have enough credits??"
"Do they still count my NCEA scores from last year since I'm a gap student?"
"Am I making the right choices?"
"Can jet fuel melt steel beams??"
"Poop?!?"

And thus concludes today's blog post diary thing wut

Oh and I watched Inside out,
What the Fuck Pixar.
Why do you always make me cry so blimmin much.
WASNT IT ENOUGH WHEN YOU TOOK MY CHILDHOOD TOYS AWAY AND MADE ANDY GROW UP?!!?!?! WASNT IT ENOUGH GODDAMMIT WHEN YOU MADE ELI DIE AND MAKE US WATCH THEIR HAPPY LIVES TOGETHER FOR 6 MINUTES JESUS WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME
//SOBS AND WAILS LIKE A WHALE//